I Didn't Know I was Worried . . .

This really is my last post before we depart for vacation. Honest!

I finally talked with my doctors today, and after talking with the urologist, Dr. D, I realized I was worried about the stent keeping things flowing between my kidney and bladder. Yes, Dr. M told me Monday that the kidney looked better, and I thought the kidney looked better, but it still didn't look normal, and I knew from the urologist that if this stent didn't work, the next step would be more drastic. They would create a stent in my back into the kidney, and the urine would drain into a bag, completely bypassing the ureter and bladder (for that kidney, but not the other one). I really don't want that kind of stent! I would do it if it meant keeping the kidney, but I really don't want it . . . It's not as if this stent is great. Sometimes I feel it, and it's uncomfortable. But if it's working, that's good.

So, when Dr. D looked at the scan today and said the kidney looked better, despite the failure of the urine to drain completely, I was relieved. He also said that when the stent is replaced (which they plan to do each three months), he could put one in with a slightly larger diameter, to help drainage. He had a plan, he wasn't worried, and I was relieved.

Later today, I talked with the oncologist, Dr. J. He listened to my story of side effects, and proposed that we cut the dose of both of the chemo drugs. He suggested we try that before going with a port. "Why have the additional procedure if you don't need it, and the lower dose gives you fewer side effects?" he asked. I had to agree that fewer procedures sounded good. So, a lower dose of the oxaliplatin to help with the exhaustion, funny numbness in the back of my throat, and tight muscles in my calves that I experienced last time. A lower dose of the Xeloda to help avoid hand-foot syndrome. I'll go for my next chemo treatment on the Friday after we get back.

For now, I'm on a chemo holiday, and feeling more like myself with each day that passes. Yea! You all have wished me bon voyage, and have a great trip many times over, and I appreciate that. I did think, while meditating this morning, that I also wanted to ask for continued prayers and healing energy. Please don't stop! I feel the support, and the prayers, and the positive energy, and it sustains and nourishes me when things are tough.

That's it for now!